Hello! It's Emmy! Haven't done a serious journal in a while but please read all
of the journal to better understand.
For a long while now (2-3 years), I have been dealing with depression and anxiety. In the last year, both have been taking serious tolls on my happiness, relationships, and life in general. I have attempted suicide 5 times (if i remember correctly, there may have been more attempts...), and self harmed since 2 years ago (when i just started 8th grade). Recently, I've been having more frequent outbursts and attacks because of my mental instability.
This past month has probably been the hardest for me. A week or so ago, I got into a really nasty fight with my main friend group (which has now been resolved) where I was told to get help. Just this weekend, I got into another argument with my amazing girlfriend that nearly broke us off. She gave me a final decision of I get better, or we were over. Out of not ever wanting her to leave me or me to leave her, I agreed I would finally seek help. And next Tuesday, March 17th, I will finally get the help I have needed for a long time.
This is a huge step in my life. I am terrified but also really hopefully. I am extremely lucky to have the friends I have. I hope they will keep me strong through therapy and will support me every step of the way. I'm truly sorry for my absence, and this will most likely keep me from talking more, but I hope you understand. During this time, I will most likely not reply to comments on my art, but please note me if you would like my discord to keep in contact with me. Thank you so so so much. I hope I get better and fully return feeling much more confident.
Love you guys!